Hopes for the New Year

I have both big hopes and little hopes for the New Year. I don't make any promises to my self about the New Year because I am a rule breaker. I am just going to cont. watching my waist. I have lost some weight but I want to lose more befire summer when we go on vacation.
If I were the Iraqi govt. I would hang Sadaam on midnight New Years. That is just me though.
I just want to make it through the school year, without an ulcer would be nice. Then I would like to pass my boards. Those are my biggest goals for 2007. My small goals are many. I can only acheive those if they don't get in the way of my large ones. I know I have a lot of people pulling for me. I know I have help from my friends at school too. It is too bad that the school doesn't help you like they say they will. Oh, well nothing you can really do. I have given many bad reviews for some of the teachers though. Maybe something will be done. Well, Enjoy the New Year celebrations. I hopeing we will be able to.

OVER, for now

Sencond semester finals are now over and done with. Ofcoarse they make us sweat it out over vacation to see what we got but honestly, I know I passed the coarse and that is all that matters.
Now, I have the next 10 days off of school and have work around here to do. Have a Happy December everyone and Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it.

Almost @ the end..

OMG, would someone like to borrow a child until Christmas Eve. I have various ages and you can have a boy or a girl. I know the excitment is driving them bonkers but they are driving me bonkers!!!!
Just a few more days of school left. I have been studying for my finals and hard too. I have found that it is more relaing to study with someone from a different school because there is no bitching about what is or is not going on. Then I get a vacation. Ofcoarse, I have to share this with the kids but Who cares. A mental break from school is much needed!
I hope everyone gets a mental break after Christmas or whatever you celebrate. Enjoy!

Closer

It is getting closer to Christmas, closer to finals, closer to the end of school. No pressure here! Thank God for good friends and a great husband or I wouldn't have any hair left.
There is not a drop of snow to be found here in Pa. Can you believe it? In fact we have a bunch of windows open! I guess Dreaming of a white christmas is apporpate this year. It hasn't been raining either. It is almost like the weather is stuck in neutral. Oh, well maybe that will mean that my parents can come see us before christmas. The first christmas tree was decorated in 1510. Just in case someone needed to know that.

What I should have said

I got a nasty 6 page letter from my x. To him my reply was sticks and stones...
What I should of said is as follows:


Dear Parinoid Wanna Be Dad:
I releize that in your parinoid little world everything is and always has been my fault. In fact I know you think I wrote the chid support laws and then took you to court. Also my "Nazi" rein is brain washing the children into hating you, brain washing my husband into loving and supporting me and brain washing the U.S. govt. into giving me income tax money. Money that I don't deserve because I sit on my lazy ass all day. Well, my response to this is : STOP WRITING AND GET BACK TO WORK SO I CAN GET MY MONEY!!!!


Do you think that would have gotten him all fired up? LOL

Nightmares

Nightmares often riddle my sleep. The mind won't turn off, I wake up with the name of a drug on the tip of my lips. What does do and how does it work, I wonder as I drift back to sleep. Another nightmare, oh now I have to pee. Look at the clock well, might as well shower, I have only 5 more mins. before the alarm goes off anyway. The name of that drug is still floating around in my mind as I shower. Wish I had time to look it up before I go , but no time. Off I go wisking into the day. Can't wait to go back to sleep again, forgetting it is riddled with night mares.

Thanksgiving

I am thankful for:

1. My husband, who is my cheerleader and keeps me going.
2. My family who loves me no matter what.
3. My friends who pick me up and carry me when I think I just can't go on any more.
4. For the two guys that helped me get the dog back when he escaped and ran through traffic.
5. To all the nameless strangers who have ever lent me a hand in my time of need.
There is so mych more but, i'd fill up pages and pages!

A Much Needed Break

Finally some down time. I usally freak out on Sundays,but I know that a long (sort of long ) break is just around the corner. First though let me tell you about my date.
Last night my husband and I celebrated our 6th wedding anni. ( even though it was weeks ago). We had some extra money so we went to an expensive place. I'm talking high class were the potatoes and veggies didn't come with the meal. They were an extra price,each! We arrived down town and the out door skating rink was set up and there was people ice skating and Christmas music playing. There was a tree in the middle all lit up. We just stopped and stared for a while. It seemed like something right out of a movie. Then we went in and had a mouth watering meal. After we went back out side and watched the skaters some more. There was nothing that could top off the romantic and peaceful atmaspher so we went home. The kids ofcoarse were already in bed so it was still peaceful.
This coming week at school we only have three days of clinical and then 5 days off. OH, how I need the break!!

Some Excitement at Last!

Finally, I got to see a surgery! Nothing too bloody or gory. It started out that they were going to put one stent in a guys leg. Once they got in there, it was clear that he was going to need more than that. A stent is a mesh type device that is put into an artery to keep it open so blood can flow to where it is suppose to. I watched on a monitor because there wasn't anything to see where the surgen was. He only put a pencile size hole in the guy and everything else everyone saw on screen. It was nice to be able to see this. The man having the stent put in was awake the whole time. Boring, put me to sleep I need the extra zzzz's! I'm not even sure if the man could see the screen. Well, the monkeys are home. Time to man the zoo.

How Much

How much more I can take is very uncertain. 4,5,6 tests in 2 days, getting up so early to spend the day running around trying to learn anything, hungry to do something that I have not done before. Trying to be nice to the family even though I am dog tried, have to study, but need to get the kids stuff done first. This will end right? My grades are starting to suck. They really need to be brought back up or I am out. ( I'm not in that much trouble yet.).
However, I do feel good about myself. I have been going around collecting coins to help out with this little boys medical bills. He is 7 years old. When he was 6 months old the doctors found that he was born with just the left side of his heart. Now he is getting a Berlin heart, and that olny lasts for up to 448 days. Then he will be in desperate need of a heart transplant. So I am collecting the coins to put in a fund that has been set up for him. No matter how bad things are there always is some one who is worse off.

Every Sunday

Every Sunday I feel so overwhelmed. There is always so much to do. Laundry, and uniforms ironed, study finish homework,help kids do talent show practice, finish talent show out fits, chase the dog ( he has dragged one of the girls with his leash until they let go. Then he runs to the neighbors),eat,sleep?,toss and turn all night. Then on Monday I have to get up really early and try to remember everything I need, the kids need and hope i remember to bring my lunch and a drink. I know I sound so negative but my head is always spinning. I thought having my friends over friday night to play games would keep me relaxed. It only worked for that night and part of the next morning. If I take anytime out then I am behind. Like today I went to the store and then my husband called to see if I wanted to go out to eat with the kids and him. So I did and I got so far behind that I threw my hands up and said I was doing nothing. This is an every Sunday story. It is always something.Please someone throw me a life saver, I am drowning!

Time is slipping away

So Halloween was yesterday and it rained almost the whole time. I am surpised no one has a sore throat ( like me ). I don't want to get into the details right now because I have been getting up @ 4:30 am to get to clinical. All of my friends and I are so tired that we can't comprehend much and we hear funny words. Such as my friend thought a lady said she was taking heart worm medicine. She's not but it does make for a good laugh. My daughter has gotten her first babysitting job. Where did the time go? It feels like I am in the movie CLICK. I have pushed fast forward on the remote and skipped many years and now she is old enough to babysit. I can remember saying that when she got old enough she could watch her brother and sisters when they went to bed and my husband and I would sneek out for a date. That seems like it was just yesterday I was saying that. Next thing you know she will graduate High school. I need to go study Pharmocology. The week is almost over already and I have two tests in the next two days. Have a good day and enjoy the children while they still want you around.

Nothing new

It has taken me days to figure out how to post on this new blogger. Finally after hitting almost every link I found the right one. All I had to do was go home.
Isn't that the moral to a lot of stories that if you want to start something new then all you have to do is go home. Dorthy said that "if I ever go looking for my heart again, I don't have to go any further then my own back yard". Although sometimes you just need to go home to know what you don't want and then you can go out and get what you do.
I cannot wait til school is over. I wouldn't recommend this school to anyone. I came to it because I knew the classroom size was small. Therefore, I expected a lot of one on one attention. I never knew that it was going to turn into high school. If you pass it is not because the teachers did there job, it is because you found a way to understand the info. yourself. This really makes me not want to go back for my Rn. Who knows I still have 8 months left. Good thing time is going quickly.

Nobody likes me everybody hates me....

Nobody likes me everybody hates me, guess I'll go eat worms...

Where is everyone know one has posted a comment in weeks and I have had some good stuff on here.
You know what I have found hard since I have gotten married? Stop all of you with your dirty minds! I have found that the guys pay less and less attention to me. That is really difficult for me because I have always had guy friends and guys always hanging around me. Now it is my friends that get all the attention and I find myself almost jealous. Well, I am happy that I am not single but I miss having guy friends. That is all i ever really had until I got married and then women started wanting to be my friend. Go figure.
School is going well. The teachers I swear are against us but I am still holding a B so I won't complain too awful much. STress that is what it is. No homework this weekend! Horray for Family time!!

Keeping up with the Jones?

People that try so hard to keep up with others must have a boring life, I can hardly keep up with myself!
Today I got to see my first full delivery! The lady had a baby girl!! I was so excited every time we could see a little more of the head I was like "look, look!" ( like they weren't already looking). This lady had been in labor since last night and gave birth shortly before we had to leave so we have to wait til tomarrow to take care of the baby. My friend also got to see a C section. She said that there was a lot of blood! I didn't want to go see it. I wasn't sure how I would handle it. When we watched a video the other day on a women having a hestorectomy I had a hard time. We had an exciting day, we also got to touch the after birth ( yes, with gloves on). Oh, and this was the first time I had ever seen fluid spurt out after the baby came or maybe it was as she was coming out. At any rate, a spec of fluid landed in the Dr.'s hair! EEEEEEEEEWWWW, I bet she was glad there are showers close by.

And now the good news...

WOW, look at the date. Can you believe how far we are into the year? Next week we will get to see babies come into this crazy world. We get the do their after care and take care of the mothers as well. I am so excited I could burst! I have seen my own child come into the world ( i could only see so much when trying to push). I really can't wait, I get to be just like a grandma, love them, take care of them for a little while and give them back to mom!
School is going well. We will be starting pharmocology soon. YIKES! That scares we some.

Nothing is safe...

Nothing or No where is safe anymore, not even the Amish one room school house. What is going on that a grown man would go into an Amish school house take some girls hostage and kill three of them and then himself. I am baffeled and that is saying a lot for me. Just when I didn't think anything could surpise me I read this on yahoo. It wasn't even an Amish man who did this. I am saddened and confused. Is the world becoming more evil or do we just hear about it more because of the many ways we get information? Can someone who is older tell me, please? I am now at a loss for words...

FYI 3

I found out why previous prescription drugs are now non- prescript and thought I would share the info. Drugs, like Clariton, are now offered without a script because they lost their patent and in order to make money they sell it over the counter.

Speaking of which i think I am going to have to buy some Clariton because the sinus and allergy med. I am using now is only dulling the pain. My head has felt explosive for a week now. I am having a hard time concentrating on my work and now is the most important. It is FINALS WEEK!! Poor me. I can't complain to friends because all of them go to school too. How did that happen? So my online friends, will you feel sorry for my aching head?

My smart dog

I have a mixed breed dog and he is a little over a year. When he wants to play I will tell him to go get a certain toy and I have to say what room it is in and then he will go get it. If you don't say what room he will look behind him and then in the dinning room and come back with a puzzled look on his face. He is great! He knows the sounds of the bus so when he hears one he will listen for the kids and when he hears them he will either go to the door or stand on the porch and wait for them. I thought he would run off the porch, down the street to greet them. Nope, he waits right on the porch like a good boy. We really lucked out when we got him!!

To the little kitten

When we found you little kitten you were so skinny and looked so sad. The very first thing you did was have a dirahra attack on me. I knew you were very sick but I thought some TLC would bring you back. You seemed to be doing so well, I got your bowel movements to be soild and I got you to drink some milk. You were even beinging to walk around some....and then you left us, just as suddenly as you came. Thank you for waiting until I got back before you went. I am greatful I got to hold you one last time. Good bye little kitten , Good bye.