Your Nasty and Your Loud

You're nasty and you're loud,
you're mean enough for two.
If I could be a rain cloud,
I'd rain all day on you.

That poem was from Something Big Has Been Here.
You ever feel that way about someone? I know I feel that way more often than not!
The garden of mine looks great the rain really made the plants spring up. Ofcoarse it made the weeds grow just as quickly. Oh well, I've always said that gardening and coloring are the two best forms of thearpy. Try it, next time you feel low buy a coloring book and a box of crayons and suddenly things don't look as glum.

3 Days of tears

It took three days of tears to finally except that the legal system is as messed up as other people say it is. I am better now. the legal system it self is what got under my skin so much. I just had a hard time with it all really. I have to move on. There is nothing more that can be done about the previous subject. My husband's operation is this coming Monday and I start back to school on Wend. I don't have time to be beating myself over what happened. The fact is that I did everything that I could and I am sorry that it wasn't enough ,but hey, what else can be done?

Finding it hard to pick self up

I haven't typed since court. I'm lucky that I have gotten out of bed since then. Basically my daughter lost. There is two small pluses that have come out of this but I'm sure it doesn't out weigh the negative. People keep saying to me that we will get him in child support. I don't care and in fact that makes me angry because that implies that money is going to make it all better. It isn't! I'd give up child support in a heart beat if that meant my daughter being happy. apparently black and white evidence doesn't matter when it comes to non-criminal court really. Life doesn't seem worth going through any more and no matter what positive spin any one tries to put on it the fact still remains that he gets to cause trouble and turmoil in my life for the next 9 years. I get sick even thinking about it.
I know that there is no way anyone can understand and many may think I'm being petty. Then again no one went through the 5 years of hell that I went through with him either.

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We are going to have to buy a new computer. The one we have now is freezing every five mins. We have ran this and that program to try to fix it and nothing has worked. So we are going to buy a new one. I actually like that idea.
tomorrow morning is court. This is just another waste of our time I,m sure because again nothing can be solved without us both agreeing on it. GOOD LUCK with that! We have tried over and over to agree but ot really is impossible. Shoot if we could agree then we wouldn't be going through the court system.
I think that my husband and I are going to buy the paint for the bedroom this week. I'm really looking forward to painting. I am so sick of white. We are going to paint it a marine color. Well, I must be off. Have a good day!

True cartoon

I have been trying to upload this great cartoon I seen in the paper. For some reason it won't up load so I will do my best to discribe it .

This women is in a hospital bed and is speaking to her nurse, "WOW. Your childcare situation sounds a bit.....complicated. The nurse says, "It's fine the twins are always with family. The lady in the bed says back to the nurse," I am the owner of a reputable daycare center. Perhaps you'd like information. The nurse tells her After four children we don't nees information.. We need Volunteers.

Let me here an AMEN!

Feeling left out

I know this is silly but I have spent the majority of my summer with my kids for many years now. This will be the first year that I don't. I have work 4 days a week and then I will be starting my classes in July 5 days a week. This leaves little time for me to attend their ball games and go swimming with them ( although it is too cold to swim right now). Then again I don't have to hear how bored they are. Last year however, they had many lemonaide stands and that was fun to watch them do. oh well, I guess i will enjoy what I do with them even more. Off to work I go.

It is a beautiful day

It is such a nice day outside! The sun is shinning and there are few clouds in the sky. My plants are growing well, for the most part. For some reason I cannot grow a rose bush! I planted it after the last frost and it was doing great. Now it is near death and I cannot seem to revive it. Oh well, I guess I'll try again next year. I have been keeping very busy and trying not to think of the impending court date. He has dug himself so deep that I cn't see how he is going to weasel his way out.
Today is the kids' last day of school! They are very happy. It doesn't matter much to me this year because I'll be in scholl most of the summer. I will spend as much time as I can with them before I start. Well, I hope everyone's day goes well.

Nothing has changed

I haven't written in a while but I want everyone to know I am still here. Nothing has really changed. He keeps digging himself deeper and deeper. I really don't have time to write but I'll try to update later.