An afternoon to remember

I was brave the other afternoon, I took six kids ice skating, by myself.
Only two of the kids, my son and his friend, and myself had ever been ice skating. The three of us had each been one time! The boys did great! You would think that they had been much more than just once and they helped the girls, in a patient, kind manner. It was amazing, everything was in harmony. There was no fighting and everyone had a great time.
I didn't fall and I was able to help the littlest ones when they wanted it. Mostly though they were brave and wanted to do it on their own! By the end they hardly needed any help at all.
My youngest had been asking me for weeks to take her ice skating, I don't know where she came up with that idea, so I thought what the hay. My son and oldest daughter each brought a friend and we had the best afternoon ever.

Happy New Year!!!

Christmas

This year I got more meaningful gifts and it was the best!!
I'll start with the gift that my parents got me. They bought me a very soft blanket to curl up in when I am sick. The funny thing was is that I was sick when they gave it to me and have been curled up in it ever since.
My best friend gave me a candel holder with a candel inside. The holder is one leaf on top of another. She said that she is the top leaf and I am the bottom because I catch her when she falls.
I can't get that out of my head. It is the nicest thing that any of my friends have ever said to me.
My husband bought me a diamond ring, much larger than I have EVER had. He said that we didn't have much money when we got married and we are doing better, so he wanted to up grade. He also said that I have done so much for the family and for him, he just wanted to show mw how much he loved me. I cried and they have it on tape. POOPHEADS! LOL
This is a christmas that I will remember forever, not for the gifts that I got but for the people that I have.

Gingerbreadmen, dogs and more...

I have never made my own gingerbread men from scratch before. I thought it would be fun if we did it this year. HA! Next time I think doing something from scratch is going to be fun talk me out of it. First I couldn't find all the stuff I needed, thank god my husband is more resourceful than I. Then I lost the receipe that I wanted to use. So I had to find a new one. There are so many DIFFERENT ones out there, I just picked one and ran with it. Now the Gingerbread is so dry that it is crumpling apart while I am trying to wrap it to put it in the fridge. Days later ( didn't have time to finish that night) still really dry. Add some water, a little sticky, add flour to the rolling pin, roll out and looks good ! Now we need to see how it tastes.
My dog has always been smart,however every thing I have ever heard about dogs is that they can not reason. My husband built a door so that the dog wouln't go in the basement to poop. He made it "doggie' proof so that the door had to pulled open instead of pushed. So my dog opened it with his teeth. He bit the top of this little door and used his paw to hold it open and then went down stairs to take a LARGE poop. HE is way to smart!!

CRAZY WEATHER

Yesterday it began to snow big flakes. It was so pretty... then it rained and all the pretty snow went away ( all in the same day). Today the snow is back and we are suppose to get a few inches oh goodie. To watch the kids yesterday sliding down the slope in the neighbors back yard brought back fond memories. I like the snow only around CHristmas and then it can go away for another year.
Around here things are getting so festive. Next week we will bake our cookies. This year we are going to try to make ginger bread men. I'm excited about that. We will do our usal giveing cut out cookies to the elderly neighbors and leaving some for some of our other neighbors. The kids really enjoy that part. AAHHHHH Christmas as long as you don't let the shopping and all get to you, this time of year is GREAT!

Just Yesterday

Wasn't just yesterday that my parents were getting us kids ready to go to my choir concert? It sure does seem that way. Tonight we are getting ready to go to my oldest daughters concert and for a change we are ahead of schedule. It was always cold and icy for my Christmas concerts, tonight it is just wet and muddy. My grandma always tried her best to come unless the weather was bad. That is one thing my kids miss out on is their grandparents coming. Not my parents fault, they try to make it when they have off and the weather is good. However, their one grandfather lives here and never goes to anything they have. Their other grandma has disconnected herself from the family so she is always a no show. I feel bad because we live far enough a way from my parents that they can't always make it. Well, no use in dwelling on it. I am going to record the concert for them instead.

No real title

I'm glad my life is less hectic than my friends life is. She could truely have her own soap opera and have plenty of material. I'm telling you she could be rich, just by being her.
I'm really happy with the way my life turned out. My life used to be just as dramatic, everyday was a struggle to survive. When you are just living to survive then that is what you base all of your desicions on. Those desecions usally aren't the best, but it is all you can do at the time. I really feel for those trying to find their way. I guess that is why I helped create SuperMom. I know first hand that when you are sick/ on bed rest and have little kids with no one to help life really gets you down. I just want to give people resources to help them, help themselves. Getting well quickly will help epople do this faster and give them confidence that life doesn't suck so bad. Still working out the smaller details but in a few months we should be up and running!
I'm just concentrating hard on my next nursing job, I really have the jitters over this. TTFN.








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NERVOUS

When I graduated Nursing School I was terrified to work in a Nursing Home or a Hospital. There are so many people that you have to pass meds. too, you have to be on top of your game at all times. I am not always at top game and I am scared of loosing my license, that I just got.
Now I am taking the leap. I am going to work for agency so I will work in many different Nursing Homes ( it pays better and you get to pick your own hours). I know I am going to have to take it slow but , god, please don't let state come in until I get my bearings. PLEASE!!! I might just pass out if they do, out of shear terror! Wish me the best.

No answers

I don't have the answers for today
I couldn't tell what the passing night will bring
Not sure what will come with the rise of the sun
Or the fall of the snow
I do know that I am here...
My ears open ,
my heart ready,
When you are...
I'll be here.

Another Long Day

I accompanied a friend to the court house today and held her hand. I sat there all day with her and held my breath with her when the judge ruled. Things went pretty well for her legally, but emotionally she is wreck. I feel for her, there is not an easy answer. The man in her life won't help himself, which would make every one's life involved easier. No he would rather just keep telling her that she is the crazy one. Boy, that tune sounds familiar. Don't you wish you had a magic wand to help other peoples pain go away?
Back at the Homestead, you can tell my one child is almost a teenager, because she sure is starting to act like one. She thinks that I am telling on her when I inform her dad about her breaking the rules. I think I felt the same way as a kid. Wasn't good enough that one parent knew? I guess that it is our job to communicate with each other about what our kids are up to, especially since we live in the same house.

I quit

I quit my job. I don't want to go into too much detail, but I pretty much had to. So now I am quickly looking for a new one. In the time I am looking I will focus on my SuperMom business. Hopefully we can get the ball rolling soon. There is still much to do.
It is another busy wed. Basketball,swimteam,Dr's appt. all tonight. Luckily, my son has a ride to swim practice. Thank goodness for other kind parents. Oh, snap, I think it is my turn to take them, maybe I can pick them up instead.
I'm pretty down, I'd like to crawl in a hole. I guess that is one good thing about having a busy life, you don't have time to hide. Infact, I am thankful ( most of the time ) for being so busy. I don't have time to let things eat at me. Although, on the down side, I have less time to solve things also. Guess I'll have plenty of time for a while.

ITs SUNDAY

I look forward to sundays, most of the time. It is my lounge, sleep as late as you want day. Lately on Sat. we have been getting up super early for the kids' sports. But, Sunday's are my lazy day.

I have been thinking back on St. Thomas and some about California. I reaaly liked the weather and scenery in St. THomas and I really liked the weather in California, but here it is pretty and there is a lot to do. In California everything seemed to be the color of sand, and in St.Thomas there was limited amount of things to do. No I think I will live here and just visit those places, in my mind and sometimes in person.

A little more on St. Thomas

The water was so clear that anywhere you went you could see the bottom and all the fish swimming by. The only big shock was how salty the water tasted when I got some in my mouth. At night I watched a sand crab dig its way out and run across the cooling sand. All your worries just dissapear here.

St. Thomas Pics. III

The top pic. is one of the HUGE cruise liners that stopped in St. Thomas.

More St. Thomas

The swim meet

I know I promised pics. everyday, but the kids have projects to do for school so the computer has been tied up at home.
I thought that I would tell you about the swim meet last Sat.
My son is on the swim team, this is his first year. This was his first swim meet. We drove about 30 miles at 6:30 am to get to this place. Warm ups were at 7:30am and then he sat around and waited for about an hour before he was up. I didn't know that I was suppose to pick his events ahead of time so the coaches picked them for him. He had his worst two events. Freestyle back stroke was first. He was timed the Friday before at 2.40 mins. My son says to me , Mom, what if people make fun of me because I come in last?' I said "Honey, someone has to come in last. I'll Be proud if you try real hard and still come in last." That seemed ok with him. He was up, my knees start knocking, he did real well even though he came in last, he shaved over 1 min. off his time! I was proud. Now we wait about two hours before he is up again. Freestyle front stroke. At the start he enters the water wrong, there go the goggles down around his neck. OOOH, I say to my self there goes the whole race. But, no, not my boy he just keeps going. Although he lost again, he shaved over 25 secs. off his orginal time. I was yelling "keep going Bud, you are going to still beat your time" and by the end of the race everyone in the stands was cheering for him. I almost cried when he finished. He comes up in the bleechers and says "Everyone was cheering for me. Why they don't even know me". I told him that everyone was proud because he kept going even with his goggles off and he beamed. It was a really great day for the two of us.

St. Thomas

Away for a awhile

I will be away for a bit on vaction/delayed honeymoon. I hope to post pics when I come back. See you all soon! Take care.

Depression swept away

My depression ha been sewpt away by all good things that has come my way. We bailed my doggie out of jail with no extra fines. I passed my nursing boards! My husband and I are going on vacation in 2 days!! The kids are doing well and I have pushed the nasty C word to the back of my mind until til my next dr's appt.
When I return I will be as busy as ever but, suddenly that doesn't bother me like it did just days before. suddenly all bad stuff seems so small.
My husband asked me if I wanted to go for my RN now. I told him not any time soon!! I don't want another year of that kind of stress for quite a while. I want everyone to relax, play sports and just have fun being a kid. We all need a break from nursing school. If I don't ever get my RN no big deal. I made it this far and that is good enough for me.

To no one really

My depression has set in full force. I can hardly move today, it has been getting worse by leaps and bounds every day and I have tried to ignore it. Today was just the straw that broke the camels back. This morning it was cold and I didn' t want to go out to hook the dog up. I thought that because it was cold he would come right back in. No, not this morning he took off and it is hard to find a black dog in the dark. I had to leave for my exam earlier than usual so I couldn't spend much time looking for him any way. So the pound picked him up. The only reasaon we know this is because some nice lady called to let us know. She would have had to get a hold of his collar some how,who knows. We didn't get the message until after we got home from work @ 4. The lady who called didn't return our call until 4:30 and then my husband called the pound to let them know we were on our way. By the time he got there, no one was there. So now my poor (bad) dog has to spend the night in doggie jail. I don't know what their hours are but I do know that he has to get out tomarrow. Guess who has to work. Guess who has to take more time out of work to get her dog out of jail. I have taken so much time out of work, if it was anyother job they would have fired me. I know why moms with more than one child stay home. They have to,for more reasons then what I can list on here. I just may take my nursing degree and sit on it. I probely failed the exam anyhow. One step ahead and ten back.

My Mom

My mom and I haven't always seen eye to eye. I have let her down, embarassed her, pissed her off andworried her to peices. I've made her cry and wonder what she did wrong ( i'm sure).
Yet, my mom has always been there for me when the chips were down and she gave me a good shove when I really needed it. My mom tought me to rely on my self and how to be strong. My mom has always been my cheerleader even if she wasn't in sight. I never give my mom enough creidt. She has been a great mom and I love her dearly. I am proud that she is my mom. She is so creative and great with words. She has a good heart but when she is mad at you look out! I miss her even though she is only a call away. I hope that I can be half the person that she is.